Two more weeks of co-op, and I'll be free. I've been so caught up in working full time, plus being tired five days a week, just took its toll afterwhile. I'm actually looking forward to being back on campus having different schedules each day, instead of having the same routine day in and day out. I'm not used to the entire concept of consistency just yet. That's not a part of my being I suppose. I enjoy variety in my life. One thing that I can think of that's consistent in my life is the fact that life is just rough in general.


On February 26, I took the day off work to attend the funeral of my Aunt Angie, my Dad's sister. Just the fact that I had to go to the funeral in the first place, didn't sit too well with me. Every since my Dad passed in 2001, it's difficult for me to attend them anymore, it just brings up too many sad and depressing feelings. And the fact that I had to see family members that I don't know at all, barely recognize, or supposed to keep in touch with (the immediate family for example), didn't help much either. With the exception of a handful of people there, it felt like I was in a room full of strangers. Through all of this, I was glad that my Uncle Eric and my brother, Eric, was there sitting with me. I even got the nerve to get up and speak. I mentioned how important it is to be with family through all the bad times, as well as the good times. Especially through the good times.. I miss being around my younger cousins, Chris and Dwight. We used to hang together over our Granny's house. Seemed like the family changed after she passed away, more like we all became more distant with each other. Maybe its just the curse of being in such a large family on both sides. That's why I confide a lot in my friends. They understand me a lot more than my own blood in some cases. They mean the world to me. Don't get me wrong I love my family, but I love my friends. I consider them to be my brothers, sisters and cousins.


So, from that event alone, had me spaced out for awhile for sure. I made it back to my normal existance for now, just grateful to be here live another day. Sometimes, you just have to take a step back and appreciate the simple things in life. One thing I really appreciate in life is warm weather. I thrive in warm weather, I'm more aware and alert in warm weather, like my senses and emotions are 100%. I got a bad case of Spring Fever on Saturday, it was at least 60 degrees here in the city, warm enough to wear just a hoodie outside, and not a hoodie and a wool coat together. But it's back to the pitiful cold for the time being, today's high was only in the mid 30's. In the next couple of weeks, spring will officially be here, so that is one thing to definately look forward to, besides the always popular Spring Break! I was hoping to get out of town this year, even if it's for a weekend, there's still a few weeks left to plan for it, so I'll just wait and see what develops.